thank you, all, for your individual displays of love and thoughtfulness, for your kindness, your delicious meals and homemade bread, your support, your cheery flowers, your prayers, your tears, your everything during this trial for me and my family. the love and concern of so many people has buoyed me up, and paul and i are unspeakably humbled knowing that others care so much. we have felt God's love through you.
i've had a lot of time for some much-needed introspection, for some meditation, for some inspiration. strange, but i guess not really, that it's through trials of the most personally piercing nature that my testimony grows in the most personally powerful ways. my faith has been re-potted in richer, deeper soil, and my love for God and His plan is exponentially increased.
i thank God for sending friends of the highest caliber and such wonderful people into my and my family's lives. i don't see that i, in particular, am deserving; nonetheless, i'm humbly and deeply grateful, because i've needed each of you and your prayers. thank you, more than i can say.
just so you all know: i'm (emotionally) good now. truly. as i told my mom, my heart and mind have peacefully let go. now i just need my uterus to follow suit...
love, brittney
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It breaks my heart to hear you sad. You are always such a cheerful, happy person. I have always looked up to you.
I wish you the best and send you my love from Oregon.
Britthey -
Not entirely sure what is going on but I am so sorry! I am like "Jen". To hear sadness in your words is heartbreaking. Hang in there.
Jami
jen -- sometimes i'm sad, mostly i try to be happy. but (almost) always genuine. that's the beauty of being human. :) thanks for your well-wishes.
jami -- i "thought" i was about 15 weeks' pregnant (two previous ultrasounds had shown a healthy, well-developing baby), when at my appointment on thursday an ultrasound showed a fetus, dead, about 12 weeks' developed. it was kind of a shock, because i had no symptoms that anything was wrong. so, yeah. bummer, right? but it's okay. really.
oh dear.
Brittney, I am so so so sorry.
But what a beautiful post. I particularly love this:
that it's through trials of the most personally piercing nature that my testimony grows in the most personally powerful ways. my faith has been re-potted in richer, deeper soil, and my love for God and His plan is exponentially increased.
yesyesyes.
I've got to print this out. Or memorize it.
Brittney, I am so sorry.
i'm so sorry for your loss, but am once again amazed by how positive you remain. you're admired by many for that and so much more!
here's wishing a speedy recovery...
katie -- i just laughed at a little joke i made with myself about maybe how i could stitch you a pillow. remember "pre-see-us treh-su-ers"? hah!
jolynn -- i'm sorry, too. happily, i've become acutely aware of so much to be grateful for. thank you.
andrea -- you're so right...i can't even begin to tell you how many people admire me for my housekeeping skills. :) i feel almost wholely recovered already. thanks, my friend.
Love you dearly Brit!
Brittney - so so sorry. Just know I'm thinking of you. Jen P.
Wow, Brittney. I am so sorry for your loss and the grief you must feel. I can't imagine the week you've had. Just reading your words is inspiring, though, and I can tell you are allowing this to bring some good with the sorrow. Thanks for being brave enough to share and for lifting me with your words. Your perspective is remarkable.
hang in there girlfriend! wish I could give you a giant hug. love you tons!
Brittney, so sorry for you and your family. I admire your strength and faith. Your in our thoughts and prayers. love you.
I had no idea! My heart breaks for you. You have had so many hard things happen to you with those little babies. I wish you could keep them longer. I'm just glad you have 3 cute little kiddos to help make you happy! It makes you have hope. I might be coming for a day to Logan and would love to come by and say hi. It would probably be sometime the last week of March for spring break. Hope you are doing better.
I had no idea! My heart breaks for you. You have had so many hard things happen to you with those little babies. I wish you could keep them longer. I'm just glad you have 3 cute little kiddos to help make you happy! It makes you have hope. I might be coming for a day to Logan and would love to come by and say hi. It would probably be sometime the last week of March for spring break. Hope you are doing better.
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